Heaven or hell?

Suffocation waking in a sweat
Scared to fall asleep again
Incase the dream begins again

What a dream when will it end
And will I transcend?

Restless sleep the minds in turmoil
One nightmare ends another fertile
Getting to me so scared to sleep
But scared to wake now, in too deep

It makes me wonder it makes me think

It's not the fear of what's beyond
It's just that I might not respond

Too many things are evident
But wouldn't you like to know
The truth

Where would you end in Heaven or
In Hell?

Help me. Help me to find my true
Self without seeing the future
Save me, save me from torturing
Myself even within my dreams